Thursday, April 10, 2014

Part 1: Faith, Hope & Blessings



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Part 1: Faith, Hope & Blessings

March 27, 2014


Thursday- Kyle came home from school telling me that his brain was hurting. He then said he got really cold. So he went and got his coat on and fell asleep on the bean bag. he was asleep until 6:45. We woke him up and had him eat dinner. He ate got ready for bed then he came out of his bed telling me that his belly hurt. I remember rock a bye him in our chair in my room. He calmed down and I laid him in bed.

March 28, 2014


I let the kids sleeping in a little today. When Kyle woke up I heard a thump. Kyle could not walk he was too wobbly. He then threw up what he ate late night. I had planned to go to SLC as a girls night for the evening. We had planned to go to the Scrapbook Expo. I told AJ that I was going to stay home. He didn't look normal for just having the stomach bug. He told me he would be ok. He wanted to take care of him and told me to go and have a fun time. So I drove to Spanish Fork were I went to Costco for the afternoon and then dropped it off at my sisters house. We had a great time going shopping at Kohl and IKEA and just hanging out.It was a fun break. Aj called me and told me that Kyle was going to have a priesthood blessing to get better. I asked AJ if I needed to come home? He said no sleep and we will see how he is feeling.

March 29, 2014



I woke up around 8:00 am I was debating to go to the hotel gym but decided I just wanted to get ready. I text AJ to ask how Kyle was doing they didn’t wake up until 9 am. He said he seemed to be doing better. So we finished getting ready and went to the Scrapbook Expo USA. as we were pulling out of the hotel parking lot. I had a feeling to say a prayer. So I said one and we went on our way. We arrived and I could not believe how CRAZY the ladies at the expo could be. They are die-hard scrapbooks and I don’t think we will ever go back to scrapbook just to look around at the Venues.
We found our place and walked around. Then an hour into it Aj told me he was taking Kyle to the doctors. He later told me that he text-ed and Kyle was going to be admitted into the hospital for dehydration and  he hadn’t gone to the bathroom since Friday morning. The next text AJ sent was, ‘when are you coming home?’ I text him back immediately and said ‘right now’ We finished packing our things and walked to our car. I turned to Melinda and asked her if she would say a prayer. I didn’t know the danger but I was feeling uneasy and wanted to feel better and comforted through a prayer. I did feel more at easy when we started driving home. We had to drive back to my sisters since I went to Costco Friday afternoon and left my fridge foods at her house. I made my way back home.

Aj was still waited to be admitted into the hospital I had a dear friend pick up the kids until I was able to get back home.
I arrived back home with Melinda by my side. I am truly grateful that she put her time to drive out with me and help me out. We originally thought that Kyle was only going to have to stay in the hospital for 1 night and we would get to come home. We kept waiting for Kyle to get up out of bed and want to play. He just laid there and slept.
I stayed with him for the evening then I came home and put the kids to bed. They fell asleep the moment I put them to bed. Then I sat with Melinda and chatted while we waited for her husband to drive her home.

March 30, 2014

I was waiting for Aj to call so I could go to the hospital in the morning and he could come home and get ready. At this time Melinda had left to go home since they needed to get back to church. I got a call around 10 am saying the DR had come around and they were going to wait and see if Kyle was going to get better. I came in and Kyle was still not 100% he looked actually worse then when I left him. Right now he didn’t talk or really open his eyes he just laid there. He was a floppy fish and had no control of his body. Finally, the nurse came in right when AJ had shown up with the kids. The nurse asked us if Kyle was normally sleepy? I said, NO. She told us she was going to go call the DR and see what he wants to do. At this time I had that feeling that I needed to take the kids home. So I took them home. As we were walking out of the hospital there was a HUGE gust of wind and lightning then it started to rain and pour. We didn’t get too wet but it was still crazy. This was right after the special fast for all religions to fast for the rain to come to Vernal. Their prayers were answered.

 I was a little antsy but wanted to remain calm for the kids. I got the call from AJ saying I needed to come to the hospital ASAP. I needed to pack a bag for whom ever was going to fly in the life flight wing plane. My heart dropped not knowing what was going to happen. My friend here in Vernal she happened to not have any of her kids in Vernal since her husband just had a minor surgery on his knee. I called her and she was here within 2 min. She was such a blessing. 

I went to the hospital with Aj’s clothes because I don’t think I would have done that well in the airplane. While I was gone, Kyle had a CT Scan and was not really responding to them when they were poking him for an IV. It was so scary to see your child laying there and you don’t know what was going on with him. Normally, when I have had hard time or trails I have always known the outcome or at least had the spirit guide my thoughts. This time I didn’t know. My faith was put to the test. I really didn’t know if I was ever going to see my sweet little Kyle again. That is when I met AJ and he came and gave me a BIG hug and told me We can do hard things. We have done it before, we can do it again. It helped but it didn’t give me the peace that I was searching for. When we came back to the room, Kyle had not moved. He just laid there with his eyes closed. I just wanted to see those eyes before he had to take off on the airplane. Aj called our home teachers to come down and give us a blessing. First they gave Kyle blessing which calmed me down a little. Then they went into a different room and gave AJ a blessing then, I was next. I wasn’t going to say no to the blessing but, I felt I wasn’t the one who needed it. The moment the blessing started, I had the peace I was looking for. I knew instantly that what ever happen would happen. That the Lord was mindful of us. AFter the blessing, The primary song that came to my mind:

My life is a gift; my life has a plan.
My life has a purpose; in heav’n it began.
My choice was to come to this lovely home on earth
And seek for God’s light to direct me from birth.

I had that feeling that everything was going to work out the way it was going to work out. I was blessed that we have the priesthood on this earth.(

A blessing given by a Melchizedek Priesthood holder, by the laying on of hands and by inspiration, to one who is sick or otherwise in need of special counsel, comfort, or healing. If the blessing is for the sick, consecrated oil is used (James 5:14-15).

I went back to Kyle side since he was going to be leaving for life-flight soon. When the flight crew came and took Kyle I wanted to see those eyes before they left but he was still not waking up. We wheeled him down to the ambulance and I got to climb in and say goodbye to Kyle I told him, “I’ll see ya when I see ya, Love you. Be Good” And I watched them drive away to the airport.

Monday, April 7, 2014

Monday Motivator: Activity

Monday Motivator: Activity

 Here are some suggestions for burning extra calories during your day:
  • Walk to a water fountain (H2O is essential for losing and maintaining a healthy weight)
  • Walk to a colleague's office instead of calling or emailing.
  • Store things you need out of reach so you have to get up and walk to get them.
  • Walk to a park and eat lunch instead of ordering in.
  • Try to take standing breaks at home, too - whether you're talking on the phone or watching TV.
  • Take a walking break instead of a coffee break.
  • Do wall push-ups while you wait for copies.
  • Program your computer to alert you to get up for a short walk every hour or so.
  • Take the stairs instead of the elevator.
  • Park a couple of blocks from work, increase your walking distance.

Monday, March 24, 2014

Monday Motivator: Healthy Mind

Monday Motivator: Healthy Mind

Long work hours... stress... some of us have turned to food! When we experience stressful events or negative emotions such as anxiety, anger, emptiness and sadness food can bring us temporary comfort. They don't call it “comfort food” for nothing do they?!
When we expect something to bring us pleasure and/or relief from distress, that expectation actually amplifies the rewarding value of food. This is what we call a “vicious cycle.” We can change this cycle!
  1. First, change our emotional appraisal, or expectation of food to bring comfort (happiness, etc.) and “retraining your brain” to think in a different way. Draw towards what you want and push away from what is no longer desirable. Develop a statement that draws you towards healthy eating habits like this, “I feel great when I choose a healthy way to cope with my emotions!” Next, develop a statement that pushes away from using food as a coping mechanism. Something like “Eating to comfort myself actually makes me feel more miserable.”

  2. Find behaviors to replace food. Develop a “Menu” that lists any pleasurable activities that you can think of and any comforting activities that you can think of. This way you will have a list of options that you can use to obtain pleasure and/or relief from emotional distress. Some examples of “Comfort Menu” items include: Deep Breathing, Meditation, Positive Imagery, Squeezing a Stress Ball, Giving Yourself a Hand Massage, Make a Stress Free Zone to Relax Within, Spend Time Outdoors in the Sun, Stretch, Take a Quick Walk, Listen to Your Favorite Song, Write Your Emotions Down, Light Scented Candles, Smell Citrus or Coffee, Talk to a Friend or Cuddle with a Pet.

  3. Trigger & Strategy . You can use the items on your “Comfort Menu” to fill in as the new routine.
    1. This should look like this: “When [identify the cue], I will [identify the new routine] because it provides me with [identify the reward].”
    2. Here’s an example: “When I feel stressed, I will take a walk because it provides me with a sense of calm and peace of mind.”
    3. Whereas the old automatic response would be to eat when feeling stressed, the new routine would be to take a walk. This planned response is a guideline for you to follow. Write it down. Read it. Practice it. We are going for progress, not perfection. Change is a process, not an event. 


    Seven daily essential mental activities to optimize brain matter and create well-being

    Focus Time When we closely focus on tasks in a goal-oriented way, we take on challenges that make deep connections in the brain.
    Play Time When we allow ourselves to be spontaneous or creative, playfully enjoying novel experiences, we help make new connections in the brain.
    Connecting Time When we connect with other people, ideally in person, and when we take time to appreciate our connection to the natural world around us, we activate and reinforce the brain's relational circuitry.
    Physical Time When we move our bodies, aerobically if medically possible, we strengthen the brain in many ways.
    Time In When we quietly reflect internally, focusing on sensations, images, feelings and thoughts, we help to better integrate the brain.
    Down Time When we are non-focused, without any specific goal, and let our mind wander or simply relax, we help the brain recharge.
    Sleep Time When we give the brain the rest it needs, we consolidate learning and recover from the experiences of the day.

    The Healthy Mind Platter was created by Dr. Daniel J. Siegel, Executive Director of the Mindsight Institute and Clinical Professor at the UCLA School of Medicine in collaboration with Dr. David Rock, Executive Director of the NeuroLeadership Institute. Images and articles were found here

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Springtime: Project Life Papers

I made coordinating with the colors. This is very bright and cheerful and I love the flow of the colors. Before I give you the links to the papers I wanted to tell you about my week. This week has been a pretty busy week for me so far. I am excited to announce that I will be in Utah for the Scrapbook USA Expo. I am tickle pink because I have never really been to anything like this. So if you want to see me now you have a reason too.

I think I love the colors so much I may even keep adding to this kit

Don't forget to pick up the Springtime: Project Life Cards

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

My Weight Loss Journey: Month 2

Every Tuesday I am going to tell you about my progress and what I have been doing for the week to stay on track of what I want to accomplish. Since I started this journey back in January I want to catch you up so I can tell you exactly what I am doing now.

The month of January I was super motivated and started to go to the gym regularly and was eating healthy. So I was able to lose 20 pounds and feel better to move around and doing the small things.

I am striving to keep my goals and looking for a brighter future. It helps when you have a GREAT support system. My number one supporter has been my husband. He has helped me through the ups and the downs.

These pictures have been taken in the early morning so I have the best hair. (kidding) I just wanted to have a picture taken of my whole body of side and profile.My husband leaves at 7 am every morning I needed my pictures taken by him. So this is what you get. Ü  I know my first month was going to be a little easier in having the weight fall off since I was changing my habits. Keeping to the habits has always been better for me.

Want to know my actual weigh follow me on instagram where I will show you exclusive pictures of my weigh loss journey. @cami_abrightforce

This month my main focus was eating healthy. Clean eating is what I have been doing. I wake up and eat either egg whites or greek yogurt. After I take the kids to school I go to the gym and exercise. After my exercise I have a protein shake that is low in carbs. but his in protein. For lunch I eat a salad with a variety of vegetable. For a afternoon snack I have either almonds or celery and dinner I usually have chicken.